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(1baah | your all sheep)

she is your darkness [17 Mar 2008|04:12pm]
[ mood | groggy ]

So i've been fucking up a lot here lately. I've had my head up my own ass for months now. Not caring about anything or anyone. 

Been drinking just a wee bit too much.

I need to keep focus on whats important here and what I'm here to do. I just find myself looking to escape from myself a lot. Hints why I've been drinking. I just wish it was easier. Somehow to blink and make everything all better and in place. If everything was that easy people would be a lot happier. But it's not. You have to work for what you have. It makes it makes you appreciate it more when you have to bust ass to get what you need. 

Hard to be postive when everything just keeps going wrong, and nothing goes right. Makes you believe that things arent ever gonna get better and things are just getting worse with every second. How much can one handle? Seriously?

I need an adult...lol






I don't need anyone but me.....so fuck off!

(your all sheep)

good ol' update [29 Nov 2007|03:38pm]
[ mood | cold ]

Im living on the east side now at Dogboys house. This house is packed full of people, but I have nowhere else to go. I'm back working for Taco Bell, working about 50-65 hours a week. I'm content with that, cause god nows I need the money. I'll be moving again here shortly with someone, not sure who yet but with a roomie. My son is with his father the majority of the time. I only get to see him on my days off.which are few and far between, I miss the shit outta him BIG TIME.

Scottie and I split for good. He began dating a friend of mine while him and I were still seeing each other. Sabrina will not be getting into one of those for a long time. Too busy working on me and getting back to a point were I can stand comfortably alone. Scottie wanted me to depend on him, wanted to take care of me and my son. He lost his job, he got us evicted and the car repo'd. He got caught stealing at his job, which might I ad was a REALLY good job. He fucked up hard core. So I moved in with Cari and he moved in with Bill and Brandi. We continued to try and work on things and I was giving him yet another opportunity to get his shit together and re-build. I left the fate of 'us' in his hands. He then decides to start fucking a friend of mine who knew my situation and cared less about it and started staying at his NEW apartment. He  then in turn starts ignoring me and stops calling. Mind you the months that we lived apart he was filling my head with all these false hopes of happiness. " Baby I love you, and would die for you. I would do anything in the world to make you happy!!". Calling me on a daily, crying and moaning about how he doesnt deserve a second chance with me. "I have fucked up sooooo much, will you ever forgive me??". I mean just to be together he was paying for hotel rooms just so we could spend the night together. Yeah the whole situation was kinda fucked. I'm not gonna be seeing anyone for a long time. I may date, but thats all.

Ok, well theres my mini update, talk to you later LJ.



peace love and olive juice

(4baahs | your all sheep)

another crazy dream.... [08 May 2007|01:45pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

Heres my dream. (yeah its gonna be long)

First off this dream was so vivid and real it was fucked up. I have never had a dream were it was this damn real. 

It starts out with Scottie and I in our own homw with 2 kids (Aidan and his son). He is rarely home and never wants to touch me. Then one day I just happen to go to the gas station and this girl recognizes me and says shes fucking my b/f! Well I dont believe her and I go home to confront Scottie about this shit. And to my surprise he owns up to it. Then proceeds to tell me how worthless and boring I am. I start crying and asking him how long this had been going on and his answer was 2 years. I go back to the gas station were this girl whose name was, Thiya, tells me that she knew about me from ther get go. That made me tripple more times mad at her. (it would have been one thing if she didnt know about me) So we argue and shit for awhile and I'm saying things like " BITCH IVE BEEN WITH HIM FOR 6 YEARS NOW AND YOU THINK YOU CAN JUST COME IN HERE AND FUCK MY MAN!!!!". So Scottie starts packing his shit cause I have kicked him out and hes moves in with Bill and Brandi (some friends of mine who he is now at this time staying with hahaha). So I go over to Brandis house to talk to him to fnd out how someone can be so damn mean and cold to someone they say they love. I talk to him and he ells me that he never loved me , that I was just a thing for him to play with. I cried my damn eyes out and he just smiled and called his g/f. He tells me " when your with someone and they start terlling you what to do its then not a relationship no more its just a battle for your life back".  He says when hes with her she makes him feel special and important like hes a somebody again. That all I did was make him feel chained down and stepped on. Well I am just overly pissed off and extremly sadden by whats going on so I decide to go out and drink my life away. (if anyone knows me thay know I dont drink fer shit anymore) So I get completly wasted and go see this 'Thiya' at her work. Let me explain how he looked, she had long straight ass thin red hair, chunkier then me with  a wide ass, and makeuop just caked on her face. So I go and see her but shes isnt working its someone else. He tells me that shes in her trruck with her sister about to leave in the parking lot. So I grab this long ass fold up wooden table and start busting out her windows and such. She gets out and says "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING SLUT!?!?!?" and I reply, "I WILL CRACK YOUR FUCKING SKULL BITCH NOW GET BACK IN THE TRUCK!!". So she takes the fuck off and the ops get called. Im drunk as hell trying to explain my entire story to the fucking copd who could give two fucks less about why I just fucked this bitchwes car up. 2 monthsd pass by and I call him to work out kid issues. He askes if wecan talk about us, I say sure. He has me meet him at his bitches workj and then takes me for a ride in her truck to 'talk'. She calls him not 10 minutes later asking him to pick her fat ass up. (but when she calls her ring tone is "I Miss You" by Incubus which its kinda like our song.). Too fucked up. So he says " your gonna have to get out right here so I can go pick her up ok?" and I say "we're in the middle of fucking nowhere and you want me out now?". So yeah he drops me off and says "look Sabrina its over between you and I, I honestly cant stand the sight of you anymore, so just go"



Right there is were I woke myself up....Ok I dont think any of you care but I wanted to have this down somewhere so I wouldnt forget this dream....it was just too fucking real.

(2baahs | your all sheep)

moved again... [07 May 2007|09:05pm]
[ mood | mellow ]

I'm now living at Cari's with Show and Tracy. Kinda tight but I wont be here for long. Adain and I have our own room, Tracy's on the couch in the dining room and well Cari an Show have thrir own room. I'm still on the southside off of 31 and Thompson. Scotty and I have taken a break cause he's well shall we say messed up? Yeah that works. 

Adain's birthday is coming up like real soon and I have no damn idea what I'm going to do about it. Jason and Sara (baby daddy and his wife) have invited me to a jig their throwing just cause they want me there with him. My baby is going to be 2 soon it farken blows my mind.  He will repeat anything you say (which is good and bad). 


If anyone wants to reach me I have a home number now its 870-3624 so yeah hook it up er sumffen.

laterz

  

(3baahs | your all sheep)

havent been here in awhile.... [16 Mar 2007|01:43pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

i hate updating theses damn things.


just thought id get that out of the way

im still with scottie....how i dont know

my kid is almost 2 (in june)

im fat


uhm

it seems that i have no more friends anymore cause i dont do shit...i dont have any ones number and no internet. sucks my ass if you ask me. i hang out with brandi alot but it seems thats it. ill be moving again in about a month. im still gonna be on the southside. i check my friends page on this damn thing and like 2 people still update...thats it. everyone is on damn myspace (aka the devil). ah well i cant complain about it ive came across a few people i havent seen or heard from in years. poop poop on your mom....im done 

food calls me

(1baah | your all sheep)

quick update.... for who i dont know [18 Dec 2005|02:51am]
[ mood | crazy ]

So everything is going good nothing new to report other than Aidan is now 6months and has 5 teeth (2 that are fully grown in). Scottie and I are still happy as ever. I just have a problem with focusing in on the little dumb shit. That man is my world! I honestly dont know what or where I would be without him.

oh yeah I love Scottie tuh huh

I'll post pix of Aidan when I can, I'm just broke and without a job right now.

Josh (clown-boy) called me the other day...man I miss him so much.

Uhm well nothing new to report, later fuckos

(3baahs | your all sheep)

mother f*er [21 Mar 2005|05:18pm]
[ mood | excited ]

So I'm going to both Dave shows no matter how fucking prego fat I will be. Its pretty damn close to my due date though. It would be fucking A funny shit if I had my kid at a Dave Matthews show!

tuh huh

Anyways just found out the line up for Ozzfest, fucking A pimpin' shit man. Killswitch is gonna be there, Shadows Fall, As I Lay Dying, MOTHER FUCKING GOD DAMN IN FLAMES BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, Arch Enemy, Rob Zombie is headlining second stage, Bury Your Dead, Trivium and more. A mystery band (someone who hasnt signed yet) will be playing before Iron Maiden and after Shadows Fall....dunno who yet but it better be fucking brutal!

Im excited about this shit on the real yo'.

Ok my prego ass is dying of starvation so im outty 5000.

(2baahs | your all sheep)

just wondering [24 Sep 2004|04:04pm]
((((if you could fill this out honeslty, that would kick my ass!!))))


1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Have you ever had a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain it.
7. Describe me in 1 word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When was the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

(your all sheep)

suck me off [05 Sep 2004|02:34am]
[ mood | cranky ]

ah poo, i really need to sleep. but as usual i cant (go figure). anyways tonight was pretty decent. i got to see alot of old faces in which i havent seen in fucking A forever. anyways blah i had a massive head ache after the show. (porlly due to the over dose of Fritos i sniffed). so yeah i just feel like asshole and i cant sleep for fucking dick.


i think ill be moving in with Holly till the end of this month then its POOF, off to the eastside. i really wish i didnt have to move all the way over there, but you do what ya gotta do.

uhm i dont think theres much else for me to say.

someone IM me im fucking bored as piss shit

AIM: s0r0ritykiller20 (the o's are zeros)
save me

(your all sheep)

[22 Jul 2004|09:47pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

jebus piss im bored. tried watching Leagally Blonde, but it just gave me a geadache. Anyways i havent talked to dustin in a couple of days. wonder whats going on...all i know is his ass better call me tonight er im gonna kick me some little kid ass.

anyways

last night was odd. a friend came over at like 2am just to fuck me(damn men). anyways that was quite a trip. i still dont wanna go into detail about it. all i know is it wasted an hour of my time, but i did get a pack of smokes out of it. so anyhoes still havent gotten a letter from Josh (clown boy) yet. I think he needs paper er something.**shrugs**.'

its really funny how people can be so god damn ignorant these days. anyhoes i think im done here ima go and jerk off now...yee haw

(1baah | your all sheep)

if id stay id never leave [22 Jul 2004|03:29am]
[ mood | nauseated ]

wow....interesting night none the less. im not gonna go into detail but uhm all i can say is I HATE THE MALE RACE!!!...lol...ok with that now said, im off to bed..fred,head....(sorry it just seemed to fit there)

(your all sheep)

im praying for tidal waves [20 Jul 2004|07:02pm]
[ mood | amused ]

argh,its been awhile since ive actually done an update instead of some quizes and some words. Here goes nothing, ive been sick for the past few days. Aaron took me to the hospital and got me some meds,i feel a little better but not much. I had some kind of throat virus (not strep). Everyone i know is getting strep now, its fucking crazy how fast that shit goes around. Anyways im still on the hunt for a job i havent been able to go hunting these last couple of weeks but my number one place is Taco Hell. If all else fails i know that i have a home in the taco (i know what your thinking you sick bastards!!)But anyways, me and dustin are going aight (i say that like im with him) anyways. I hope he realizes soon that he is still a child. I dont think he does but he is. I know this because he just looks out for number one himself, instead of me and him (cause when you really like someone, you tend to be careful with their feelings as well as yours) but he is still in the process of 'selfishness' and thats fine he'll grow out of it someday just like i did. But until then im not going any further with this relationship thinggy going on. I realized the other day that Aaron (as stupid as he is) is all in all a good guy. And the girl he finally chooses to settle with will be a very happy woman. I had to find out the bad way how much he would go through for someone he loved....(god knows that was some muther fucking shit). But all is good now, hes just like a brother to me,and me as a sister to him (sorta, lol). I was really hoping id get a letter from Josh (clown boy) today, but he must be outta some paper er some shit. Cause if he would have written me it would have been here already. Jenny's begining to piss me off BAD!! She made this list the other night entitled " MY RULES " and i was like WHAT THE FUCK BITCH(er shall i say mom?), i dont live with my god damn parents. Even if i did, i wouldnt have rules like that. She says she doesnt want peole staying the night, unless she doesnt have to get up early then its ok. And uhm oh yeah when people are allowed to stay the night they cant sleep on the couch, cause when jenny gets up she likes to watch tv and she cant if someones on the couch (so then she crys about it). Shes afraid to come to me about problems she has with me, she just runs and bitches to Jay about it (like a situation i was in before). I must be one scary ass bitch,cause everyone i know is scared to talk to me about issuses that they may have with me. I dont know why, i guess i have one of those personalities, i dunno **shurgs**. She needs to learn that if you want respect, you have to give to recive. Maybe her mother never taught her that as a child, if thats so i will be more then willing to teach the little bitch. She likes to take a small problem and make it into a major world issue. She cant handle stress and she freaks out over little ass shit. For example i was writing Josh (clown-boy) a letter the other day and when i had problems spelling a word i would write on another side paper to see if it looks right. Well i did that with these words -always- , -attatched- , -obsessed- , so she tells Jay that im leaving her messages to fuck with her and piss her off. (once again been in this situation before). Shes a really self absorbed person and she fucking gets on my god damn fucking last nerve. Next time i hear her bitching ass mouth im gonna fucking slam it shut with my god damn fist. OK...now that ive vented,lol. Im starting to get my appetite back. I just ate some chilli. What a great way to start your appetite back up. Well i just stopped and realized how much ive typed so im gonna end this here and say toodles.....so....toodles.

-- boob juice and mountian spu--

(1baah | your all sheep)

this is what happens when you get REALLY bored [19 Jul 2004|11:54pm]
[ mood | bored ]





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(your all sheep)

looky here [19 Jul 2004|12:10am]
[ mood | geeky ]

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
CategoryYour Score Average
Self-Lovin'35%
When I think about you - or anyone - I touch myself
65.1%
Shamelessness40.5%
Puts 'em on the glass
79.4%
Sex Drive 18.4%
Humps fire hydrants when nobody's looking
77.7%
Straightness5.4%
Knows the other body type like a map
44.9%
Gayness 3.6%
Makes Dr. Frank-n-Furter look tame
83.7%
Fucking Sick65.5%
Dipped into depravity
90%
You are 32.48% pure
Average Score: 72.7%




i expected worse.....oh well..but this does explain alot

(your all sheep)

[18 Jul 2004|01:15pm]
[ mood | devious ]

Personality Disorder Test Results
Paranoid |||||||||||||| 54%
Schizoid |||| 18%
Schizotypal |||||||||||||| 58%
Antisocial |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Borderline |||||||||| 34%
Histrionic |||| 18%
Narcissistic |||||||||||| 42%
Avoidant |||||||||| 34%
Dependent |||| 18%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||| 34%
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ok,well everytime i trake this i get different results. i remember taking this thing almost a year ago and it was the total opposite of this....just a little weird




this ones funny shit




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(your all sheep)

go figure [18 Jul 2004|12:27am]
[ mood | sick ]

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man im sick as shits...i went to the hospital today. (thanks aaron) he took me and sat with me till the doctor seen me. told me i just had a infection in my throat,doesnt stop me from feeling like an asshole. anyhow they gave me like 6 perscriptions to fill knowing i am broke (i even told em that shit) anyways...im gonna go tomorrow morning to get my shit filled...fuck my tummy hurts......













help me

(2baahs | your all sheep)

[16 Jul 2004|01:47am]
[ mood | chipper ]

ok...this was too god damn good to pass up....so here it is

::drumroll please::













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jesus that was fucking A hard...**wipes sweat from head**

(your all sheep)

[15 Jul 2004|11:37pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

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heh...thats f"ing awesome man.i did always like to look at myself as a lover not a fighter, ok the was queer. so i got a letter from Clown boy today. i didnt think he was gonna write me ack but he did. i was so excited to hear from him. he says he misses me and all that good shit. for some reason ive been thinking of him like mad crazy this past week. i think thats what forced me to finally write him. he says hes been waiting on me to write. i was just scared an shit. but now that ive heard from him i feel tons o better. i just got done writing him a 8 page letter. fucking cazy ass shit. im gonna try and write him once a day. may not be able to send them to him. but once i get more stamps i will. id love to go and see him like soon. but he says their on lock down not for sure why,so yeah.jays getting better,hes no longer boofing, he just still feels like asshole. i hope i dont get sick man,id fucking die. well not really but i cant afford to get sick. so anyways im a little lost fer words right now...so i think this means im done...goat twat and tiger toes.....er some stuff....man im queer

(your all sheep)

BOO YA!!! [15 Jul 2004|12:37pm]
[ mood | tired ]

im feeling alot better then i did last night. i think it was the mc donalds that i ate (eww). but anyhoes i was pissed off last night and i wanna say im sorry about the post i made. i was just being weird wacked out sabrina. when i get pissed, everything just seems to upset me. it was odd, but im doing jst dandy today. i think im gonna clean out the back room today. its fucking trashed back there. then im gonna get ahold of aaron to tell him i cant go to ft. wayne with him this weekend, id like to but i told Dustin that he could come over this weekend a long ass time ago. oh well ill go down there with him some other time. ok well im still tired as shit piss so ima go back to bed an shit. just had to do a quick update.





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(your all sheep)

so here it goes again [15 Jul 2004|01:04am]
[ mood | sad ]

I dont know why but I feel like typing. So here I go with my rambles.

This is the exact reason I didnt wanna get involved with him. I cant handle being invloved with boys. I cant stand little games that they play. He doesnt know how to handle real feelings. Instead of some bullshit little girl that likes him. Thats not me anymore, I cant just sit around and wait every second for the phone to ring. I cant sit around and wonder when the next time I'll see him. If anyone out there really knows me,they know I cant take being apart from someone I feel for. But stupid me thinking that I'm 'stable' enough to handle anything that comes my way. But I cant do that anymore (atleast not for awhile). It takes a long time for a broken heart to heal (if it ever can). Im pretty sure its possible for me just not now. He makes me feel good,makes me smile, makes me forget all that is wrong. All of that just to be thrown to the side like always. Boys see me as a neat little toy that is just awesomly cool. But once a new toy comes around they look at how dull and lifeless there'used to be cool toy' is. They drop it and run away. Thats why I say fuck boys I need a man. Someone who can relate to me. Someone who can understand where I'm at. I have found someone who I thought I could count on. But instead I find a child who just needs someone to be there here and there. Well thats not part of my objective. Actually i dont even think I have an objective. Maybe its to just find someone who wont waste my time.

thank you for your concern but you can leave now.

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